Pretty Time-Consuming...

So I think my first obstacle to conquer is going to have to be my internet obsession. I am no different from most people in that I spend entirely too much time online, even when my classes are not in session. Thus, I am going to try to limit my time on my computer. It will be hard at first, like most things, but I honestly believe both my family and I will benefit from me being more 'present'. I get bored with television easily so maybe, not having Facebook to fall back on, I will play with my son more or, God forbid, go outside! Lord knows, after a long winter, fresh air and sunshine should only do me good. Since I just started this blog and want to keep up with it, I see an opportunity to work on my handwriting. If I find myself struck with inspiration, I have a notebook I can keep my thoughts in and, come my allotted computer time (it is like being back in grade school!), I will just transfer them to you! Good plan, right? I thought so too. *Grin* So, starting immediately, I think I am going to limit my time online to when both of my boys are sleeping and/working, but forcing myself to take care of my needs first. I need more than just a shower; I should actually style my hair and lotion my skin to help foster a new affinity for my person. I suppose that is technically two steps towards my better me today!

Pretty Honest...

This is me as of the end of March 2013. I would like to lose 50 to 60 pounds. However, this is not a weight loss blog, per se. This is about becoming a 'perfected character'.

    

     Like most women, I have been struck with an incurable case of jealousy from time to time. While it probably means I have excellent taste in the company I keep, I often get dismayed over the perceived perfection of my friends. Thankfully, none are perfect in all things (that would likely put the last nail in the grave of my self-esteem) but still enough so to make me sad that I am not even able to pretend perfection (not to the point of believability) in any area of my life. Thus, this blog was created! I am in no mood to 'fake it until I make it' or whatever. I would rather be as honest as I can and maybe learn of a rather perfect part of myself – no faking required. When I was in modeling classes as a teenager, I had an instructor that pointed out that people who are famous and what not are not perfect people but perfected characters. I am going to perfect my 'character'.

     As an opening 'how do you do?', I thought I would share a little about myself. It will not be long and drawn out since I will spend a lot of time divulging portions of myself. I will sum it up by saying that I am twenty-six years old and the youngest of five children, as well as the only girl. I met my husband five and a half years ago, we have been married for three and have a two-year-old. DeWayne is a flight medic for the Air Force as well as a medical technician at a local hospital's Intensive Care Unit. I am a stay-at-home mom while I finish up my degree. I go to school online and am only three quarters from being completely done, my graduation scheduled on October 26^th. I am so excited! It has taken me eight years to get my Bachelors in Criminal Justice. But, through a brain tumor, marriage, and having a baby, I have persevered and, of that, I am very proud.

     This, and raising Sebastian of course, have been occupying my focus for quite some time and taking care of myself like I once did has kind of fallen to the wayside. I have become one of those women I never understood before who stopped wearing makeup and just put their hair up everyday. And it is not always because I am too busy either. Yes, sometimes I am pretty swamped, especially since Dew started working the night shift and all of the daily duties fall to me, but, more often than not, I just do not feel like doing anything. I would rather use nap times for dishes, schoolwork, or, Heaven forbid, a nap for myself. I am hoping to change this and I plan on sharing my efforts with you, whoever you are. Maybe we can help each other, share back and forth. I would love that! So feel free to give your opinions and what not.